Sometimes we try to hide inside ourselves the very things which make us most appealing. The parts of us that really want to dance on the countertops when we hear Donna Summers singing 'hot stuff' on the radio in the local shop at 9.30 in the morning. Or maybe it's the part of you that wants to get out and go running or bike riding or skiing and you feel too ashamed of your present body or just can't work our how not to look ridiculous.
I think of these shadows within us as our freedom fighters. The bits of ourselves that constantly niggle away at us hoping that one day we will crack and break out. The break out doesn't have to apear on national television or go viral on the internet. It just has to go viral within oursleves and embue our world with more colour and liveliness than we previously thought possible.
A big shadow I have hidden is that I am a writer. I am getting it about with me more often now. It is with me at the shops, in the library, I am beginning to say it out loud and it feels like the most natural thing in the world. Much more natural than when I rolled the die for roulette, surved beers on tap, poured ice water while taking a dinner order, etc etc etc. All of these were helpful and a way to make a living and extremely honourable at the time, but I had to convince myself.
A big shadow I have hidden is that I am a writer. I am getting it about with me more often now. It is with me at the shops, in the library, I am beginning to say it out loud and it feels like the most natural thing in the world. Much more natural than when I rolled the die for roulette, surved beers on tap, poured ice water while taking a dinner order, etc etc etc. All of these were helpful and a way to make a living and extremely honourable at the time, but I had to convince myself.
What will you do today, that you didn't know you would do?
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