Change the dream

"A dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world" Oscar Wilde

When we try and shift an idea that we have had for a long time, it is very difficult. When we know that it is really important to move forward and change the direction we are going, it is crucial that we examin where we are beginning from in the first place.

Where do our ideas come from? Where do our patterns emerge? When the dream no longer fits, we need to change the dream.

I have started to really question my ideas, to look deeply at where these notions come from and I realise that these ideas are so deeply embedded, they are easy to miss. Ideas like I think stability means owning your own house, having a full time job, etc. And yet all around us people lose their houses, their jobs. This is not stability. I had a dream that when I grew up I would own my own house and live with lots of land around me and have a job that I went to every day. Now that I have children I want to be home with them and going into school and spending time with them so a full time job doesn't work. And we want to live at the ocean so owning our own house is questionable right now - but we can still live there.

The real dream for me is about freedom. The freedom to move and explore as I want to. The freedom to listen deeply to another's heart. The freedom to sit with my daughter as she reads to me on the boat and tells me all about her friends and their life at school. The freedom to understand my husband and the way he wants to communicate with me. The freedom to take my time. I am a slow learner. But this is now my dream. And when it is no longer relevant I will throw it out like all the rest. Precious and not.